Thinking for tomorrow

Okay. So I will try to post something tonight. It is 10:11 PM now, Sunday. I am trying to write something out of ... well, basically nothing.

I am writing now just from my head, not writing it down first as a draft. I will try to write something (I doubt if it is of any use or sensible meaning), just that I want to write again.

So today actually started late. I got up 8 or 8:30 am, I forgot. I then had exercise. As usual, 20 push-ups, 5 sets. Then the dumbbell. 30 pounds this time, 6 reps per arm, 5 forms (Does this make sense? I mean, I don't know how to describe what I did....).

After finishing the dumbbells, my nephew asked me to do the push-ups again - this time, with him on my back. I agreed, thinking I need that, but since I already did push-ups, I will just do 10. But after my 10th, he asked that I do it again (with him still on my back), but this time, we count in Filipino. Interesting.

So I did that, then ate breakfast and had coffee.

(For some reason, coffee, when I prepare it at home, is quite good!)

I just noticed that my verb tense is not as consistent (maybe not even accurate) as I thought it should be. I wonder if I would read this again before publishing...

Or if I would edit after I publish....

Anyway, moving on... I took a bath, ate lunch (tinolang manok!), then went to the office.

Yes, I went to the office.

I was supposed to meet a friend today, and I was thinking of consulting her regarding getting a house. But that did not happen. I have four or five articles that I need to finish, and it was raining. So I could not have met her and talked about that topic when I had those things in my head.

So I tried to write the following:

1. faculty conference 
2. research dissemination seminar
3. meeting of chancellor with PE faculty
4. foundation week
5. launch of the online journal

Of the five, I was able to complete  Number 1, 90% of Number 4, and 80% of Number 5. Number 3 is a very complicated - event? - thing so I could not begin with the time I had. Number 2... I cannot find the press briefing, so I definitely cannot write about it. I do not have basic facts for that (I do not even remember the topic of the seminar).

I went home just before 9 pm. My student assistant sent a message saying she saw the lights on my office, so she knew it was I who was at the office. By that, I also knew that she went to the mall to play arcade. Problematic student. I mean, not really as a student. She cannot stay at her dorm, she had to stay  somewhere just so that she  could avoid thinking about thinking. Poor one. I mean, even driving herself to a very busy state is not enough to stop her thinking about that ... thing? or person.

Anyway, now, I am typing this. On Blogger, I have a message that says, "An error occurred while trying to save or publish your post. Please try again. Ignore warning." I am not sure if this is because of my browser (Google Chrome) in an Ubuntu OS, or my broadband provider (and it is raining now).

For tomorrow, I have to finish all the articles and post them online. Also, I have to announce the call for papers. And there is a meeting at 9 am for Dean. I am not included, but I have to be at the office early because ... I just feel that I would be needed (conceited). 

On another note, I have to remember to send that report of the department regarding the fact-finding committee. Hmmm... Just thinking about them, I need to update my list for tomorrow. 

I hope I have a good sleep so that I can exercise.

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The Distinct Shadow.

Missing writing

Wow, it has been a while since I last wrote something here. I do post some announcements in our College blog, but not much here. Maybe it is because I feel that the things I want to write about here are not really for 'unknown public' consumption. Hmmm...

Also, I do not know what to write about anymore. I feel that because I do not write here anymore, my writing is not as good as when I was in high school (when I was a writer for our publication). But what can I do?

As of now, one day after my 31st birthday, what should I write about? This Unseen Existence remains an unseen existence. Nope, a relationship does not mean you have already seen. Sometimes, it is rather disappointing to realize that just when you have been seen in a way that you thought you want to be, you end up hoping you have not been seen in the first place. Did you get it? Anyway.

A student assistant used that term, "wall flower" to describe that character in a story which is not noticed by the person most dear to him or her. So I posted in Kakao Talk (also in Facebook, but I deleted it almost immediately), "Wall flower? I would rather be an unseen existence."

What is an unseen existence? You exist. You are not there as a display. You do not care how other people view. Yes, even the person you hold dear. You are not seen. But you remain serving your purpose, a distinct shadow.

I hope I get to write more here.

But I think I wrote that one before.....