Yesterday, when I was going home, I felt afraid.
I felt afraid because I didn't know what would happen. I failed my final exam in [Managerial] Economic Analysis, a required subject in my course (Master of Management).
I also failed my mid-term in the same exam.
If you were in my position, would you not feel afraid?
I tried to rationalize what was happening. I thought, If I would watch my life in a television, how would I look like? Maybe, I would say that that person is stupid for putting so much with such an unimportant, "un-everlasting" (in reference to everlasting things in Purpose Driven Life) idea.
Usually, I could do that. But not that time.
In the train, I felt afraid and hopeless. I was about to give up.
I mean just give up. Not to motivate myself (which I do everyday considering the number of things I have to do). Not to plan. Not to innovate or adopt. Just give up.
I felt the masters flying away.
(My feelings for the failure was compounded with the idea that I have not failed the graduate course when I was working for private companies, but now that I work at the school where I take it, that is when the threat comes in!)
Those were the things going through my head.
I read the Bible today. Early. I thought I have to make sure I don't forget reading it this time, and try to rush it in the evening. But I was not able to.
At 7 pm, I went to Gloria Jeans (Gateway), so get some files. I decided to read the Bible. And this time, I read it at www.biblegateway.com (what can I say?).
I decided to search for free downloadble Bibles for my Linux laptop. I want to have one, preferably an NIV. I got to some sites, but I was not able to get one because the idea of ProTIPS came in. I decided to search for it because I want to have an idea what the book is like.
Incidentally, I came across the ProTIPS blog.
I have tried searching for it more than a year ago at the FEBC website, to no avail. Now, I see all the tips I have been searching for.
But of course, I'm still buying the book. :)
Actually, all of that is just the introduction. My main point is short and simple.
In the post that I read (which is actually for November 4 2008), it saw two sentences:
You say: "I'm afraid."
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear. (2 Tim. 11:7)
That's it.
Monday, March 30, 2009
Friday, December 19, 2008
My Micu
I am blogging because I want to brag about the “katas” of my work at UP. When I worked for PeopleSupport, I was able to purchase two cellular phones, but they were purchased one at a time, and using credit card of my co-worker. When I worked for Convergys, I was able to get a mobile phone—cash this time, but it is worth 6K including the extras. It is a China-made phone with dual active sims. Those were good buys, I must admit.
My latest electronic device, however, is worth blogging about as it is really a good buy in terms of what it does and what more it can do.
My laptop is an Acer 4730Z, T3200 processor, 2GB of memory, total of 160GB storage. It also has a DVD-RW, 5-in-1 card reader, 2 USB slots, Crystal Eye web camera, and wifi (According to the ad, the wifi has 802.11 b/g/N-Certified... Wow!). When I bought it, it had Linpus Linux.
Linpus Linux is a text-based operating system... or maybe, I just don't have an idea how to add a graphical user interface like GNOME or KDE to it (I actually don't know what those are.). So when I bought it, I was not able to use my laptop immediately.
I had it installed with Windows XP SP2... the popular XP version (that I know). I still have to use it because most of my classmates at my masters classes and even my co-workers at UP Manila still have Windows. I have to stay compatible with their systems.
I am, however, very much interested and drawn to the Ubuntu Linux operating system. My teacher in Management Information Systems, Prof Ariel Betan (who is Assistant to the Vice President for Administration of the University of the Philippines), introduced the idea of dual operating systems last semester, so I had that interest in dual operating systems to suit my needs and the needs of my friends.
Ubuntu (and Linux, in general) seems difficult. When I try to get instructions on how to install OpenOffice.org 3.0 (which is easy to install in Windows), I had lines of text commands that—not only was it difficult to understand—difficult to follow. For example, when I tried to use the su - command, and entered the password, I got an “Authentication Failure” error.
I asked Professor Betan about it and, at the same time, Googled for instructions on how to install the office suite in my Linux. I got an article on how to use the Synaptics Package Manager. I was afraid to use it because I read earlier (and followed the article) that I had to uninstall OpenOffice.org 2.4.1 before I install 3.0. That means I uninstalled 2.4.1 and had no office suite for one day.
Professor Betan gave me the article that I found. I followed it. And voila! I have OpenOffice.org 3.0! I actually used it to type this article at home (before I uploaded it to this blog).
Now, I know how to install applications in Ubuntu easily. Look for Debian file URLs and add it to the list of Software sources. And that is how easy it is.
It is so easy to change desktop images. It is as easy as creating an image using OpenOffice.org 3.0 Drawing application.
The effects are way better, and with the swap that the IMS staff has done, I have 4GB of memory to use!
I am really proud of my laptop that I have decided to give it a name: MICU, or Mobile Information and Communication Unit.
I first thought of giving it MX, from the book that I was writing. I find it difficult to think of a reason for the acronym, however, so I had to change it to something that can reflect what it is for.
There were about five names, but the only other contenders were MICE, or Mobile Information and Communication Equipment, and Information Operations Unit, or IOU. Neither was acceptable because the idea that is conjured from those do not reflect the effect I intend them to have.
I also thought of MICA, for Mobile Information and Communication Associate/Assistant. I thought, however, that MICA is a female name. I think computers are male, because you have to turn them on to make them work (this is an anti-male joke :).
MICU (or Mobile ICU also), on the other hand, may be related to intensive operations in the hospital. I believe that my information needs and operations reflect this.
With that long explanation, I am now giving my laptop a name: MICU (pronounced mee-ku).
I hope we can work together well and for a long time. MICU is my Information Operations Assistant.
Here are pictures of the hardware and screenshots of Ubuntu (There is nothing new to see at my Windows XP.).
My latest electronic device, however, is worth blogging about as it is really a good buy in terms of what it does and what more it can do.
My laptop is an Acer 4730Z, T3200 processor, 2GB of memory, total of 160GB storage. It also has a DVD-RW, 5-in-1 card reader, 2 USB slots, Crystal Eye web camera, and wifi (According to the ad, the wifi has 802.11 b/g/N-Certified... Wow!). When I bought it, it had Linpus Linux.
Linpus Linux is a text-based operating system... or maybe, I just don't have an idea how to add a graphical user interface like GNOME or KDE to it (I actually don't know what those are.). So when I bought it, I was not able to use my laptop immediately.
I had it installed with Windows XP SP2... the popular XP version (that I know). I still have to use it because most of my classmates at my masters classes and even my co-workers at UP Manila still have Windows. I have to stay compatible with their systems.
I am, however, very much interested and drawn to the Ubuntu Linux operating system. My teacher in Management Information Systems, Prof Ariel Betan (who is Assistant to the Vice President for Administration of the University of the Philippines), introduced the idea of dual operating systems last semester, so I had that interest in dual operating systems to suit my needs and the needs of my friends.
Ubuntu (and Linux, in general) seems difficult. When I try to get instructions on how to install OpenOffice.org 3.0 (which is easy to install in Windows), I had lines of text commands that—not only was it difficult to understand—difficult to follow. For example, when I tried to use the su - command, and entered the password, I got an “Authentication Failure” error.
I asked Professor Betan about it and, at the same time, Googled for instructions on how to install the office suite in my Linux. I got an article on how to use the Synaptics Package Manager. I was afraid to use it because I read earlier (and followed the article) that I had to uninstall OpenOffice.org 2.4.1 before I install 3.0. That means I uninstalled 2.4.1 and had no office suite for one day.
Professor Betan gave me the article that I found. I followed it. And voila! I have OpenOffice.org 3.0! I actually used it to type this article at home (before I uploaded it to this blog).
Now, I know how to install applications in Ubuntu easily. Look for Debian file URLs and add it to the list of Software sources. And that is how easy it is.
It is so easy to change desktop images. It is as easy as creating an image using OpenOffice.org 3.0 Drawing application.
The effects are way better, and with the swap that the IMS staff has done, I have 4GB of memory to use!
I am really proud of my laptop that I have decided to give it a name: MICU, or Mobile Information and Communication Unit.
I first thought of giving it MX, from the book that I was writing. I find it difficult to think of a reason for the acronym, however, so I had to change it to something that can reflect what it is for.
There were about five names, but the only other contenders were MICE, or Mobile Information and Communication Equipment, and Information Operations Unit, or IOU. Neither was acceptable because the idea that is conjured from those do not reflect the effect I intend them to have.
I also thought of MICA, for Mobile Information and Communication Associate/Assistant. I thought, however, that MICA is a female name. I think computers are male, because you have to turn them on to make them work (this is an anti-male joke :).
MICU (or Mobile ICU also), on the other hand, may be related to intensive operations in the hospital. I believe that my information needs and operations reflect this.
With that long explanation, I am now giving my laptop a name: MICU (pronounced mee-ku).
I hope we can work together well and for a long time. MICU is my Information Operations Assistant.
Here are pictures of the hardware and screenshots of Ubuntu (There is nothing new to see at my Windows XP.).
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Made to Love You
A fast song that still captures a reality of reason of existence:
Made to Love You
The dream is fading, now I'm staring at the door
I know its over cause my feet have hit the cold floor
Check my reflection, I ain't feelin what I see
It's no mystery
Whatever happened to a passion I could live for
What became of the flame that made me feel more
And when did I forget that...
I was made to love you
I was made to find you
I was made just for you
Made to adore you
I was made to love
And be loved by you
You were here before me
You were waiting on me
And you said you'd keep me
Never would you leave me I was made to love
and be loved by you
The dream's alive with my eyes opened wide
Back in the ring you've got me swinging for the grand prize
I feel the haters spittin vapors on my dreams
But I still believe
I'm reachin out, reachin up, reachin over
I feel a breeze cover me called Jehovah
And daddy I'm on my way
Cause I was made to love...
I was made to love you
I was made to find you
I was made just for you
Made to adore you
I was made to love
And be loved by you
You were here before me
You were waiting on me
And you said you'd keep me
Never would you leave me I was made to love
and be loved by you
I was made to love you
I was made just for you
Made to adore you
I was made to love
And be loved by you
You were here before me
You were waiting on me
And you said you'd keep me
Never would you leave me I was made to love
and be loved by you
(nah, nah, nah, nah - nah, nah, nah, nah, nah)
(nah, nah, nah, nah - nah, nah, nah, nah, nah)
Anything I would give up for you (nah, nah, nah, nah, nah)
Everything, I'd give it all away (nah, nah, nah, nah, nah)
Anything I would give up for you (nah, nah, nah, nah, nah)
Everything, I'd give it all away (nah, nah, nah, nah, nah)
Anything I would give up for you (nah, nah, nah, nah, nah)
Everything, I'd give it, I'd give it all away, Oh yeah
Cause I was made to love you (I was made to love you)
Yeah I was made to love you (I was made to find you)
Cause I was made to love you (I was made to adore you, made just for you) (nah, nah, nah, nah, nah)
I was made to love you (I was made to adore you, made just for you)
Cause I was made to love you (I was made to adore you, made just for you) (nah, nah, nah, nah, nah)
I was made to love you (I was made to adore you)
Yeah I'm loved by you
Yeah I'm loved by you (nah, nah, nah, nah, nah)
Yeah I' m loved by you (nah, nah, nah, nah, nah)
(nah, nah, nah, nah, nah)
(nah, nah, nah, nah, nah)
Made to Love You
The dream is fading, now I'm staring at the door
I know its over cause my feet have hit the cold floor
Check my reflection, I ain't feelin what I see
It's no mystery
Whatever happened to a passion I could live for
What became of the flame that made me feel more
And when did I forget that...
I was made to love you
I was made to find you
I was made just for you
Made to adore you
I was made to love
And be loved by you
You were here before me
You were waiting on me
And you said you'd keep me
Never would you leave me I was made to love
and be loved by you
The dream's alive with my eyes opened wide
Back in the ring you've got me swinging for the grand prize
I feel the haters spittin vapors on my dreams
But I still believe
I'm reachin out, reachin up, reachin over
I feel a breeze cover me called Jehovah
And daddy I'm on my way
Cause I was made to love...
I was made to love you
I was made to find you
I was made just for you
Made to adore you
I was made to love
And be loved by you
You were here before me
You were waiting on me
And you said you'd keep me
Never would you leave me I was made to love
and be loved by you
I was made to love you
I was made just for you
Made to adore you
I was made to love
And be loved by you
You were here before me
You were waiting on me
And you said you'd keep me
Never would you leave me I was made to love
and be loved by you
(nah, nah, nah, nah - nah, nah, nah, nah, nah)
(nah, nah, nah, nah - nah, nah, nah, nah, nah)
Anything I would give up for you (nah, nah, nah, nah, nah)
Everything, I'd give it all away (nah, nah, nah, nah, nah)
Anything I would give up for you (nah, nah, nah, nah, nah)
Everything, I'd give it all away (nah, nah, nah, nah, nah)
Anything I would give up for you (nah, nah, nah, nah, nah)
Everything, I'd give it, I'd give it all away, Oh yeah
Cause I was made to love you (I was made to love you)
Yeah I was made to love you (I was made to find you)
Cause I was made to love you (I was made to adore you, made just for you) (nah, nah, nah, nah, nah)
I was made to love you (I was made to adore you, made just for you)
Cause I was made to love you (I was made to adore you, made just for you) (nah, nah, nah, nah, nah)
I was made to love you (I was made to adore you)
Yeah I'm loved by you
Yeah I'm loved by you (nah, nah, nah, nah, nah)
Yeah I' m loved by you (nah, nah, nah, nah, nah)
(nah, nah, nah, nah, nah)
(nah, nah, nah, nah, nah)
Sanctuary
Another favorite Kingdom Song:
Sanctuary
Lord, prepare me to be a sanctuary
Pure and holy, tried and true
With thanksgiving, I'll be a living
Sanctuary for You
It is you, Lord
Who came to save
The heart and soul
Of every man
It is you Lord
who knows my weakness
Who gives me strength,
With thine own hand.
Lord prepare me to be a sanctuary
Pure and Holy, tried and true
With thanksgiving I'll be a living
Sanctuary for you
Lead me on Lord
From temptation
Purify me
From within
Fill my heart with
You holy spirit
And take all my sins away.
Lord prepare me to be a sanctuary
Pure and holy, tried and true
With thanksgiving, I'll be a living
Sanctuary for You.
Sanctuary
Lord, prepare me to be a sanctuary
Pure and holy, tried and true
With thanksgiving, I'll be a living
Sanctuary for You
It is you, Lord
Who came to save
The heart and soul
Of every man
It is you Lord
who knows my weakness
Who gives me strength,
With thine own hand.
Lord prepare me to be a sanctuary
Pure and Holy, tried and true
With thanksgiving I'll be a living
Sanctuary for you
Lead me on Lord
From temptation
Purify me
From within
Fill my heart with
You holy spirit
And take all my sins away.
Lord prepare me to be a sanctuary
Pure and holy, tried and true
With thanksgiving, I'll be a living
Sanctuary for You.
Be with me Lord
This is one of my favorite Kingdom Songs:
Be With Me Lord
Sometimes I feel that I could fight an army
With just me and you, there's no one could harm me.
Oh, but sometimes I can feel a little shy,
It's when I need to know that you are there that's why I'm singing
*Be with me Lord, Be with me Lord
be with me Lord, oh, be with me,
be with me, be with me Lord,
be with me Lord, be with me Lord,
be with me, be my only God.
I know you said that I will not be tested,
more than I could bear and that you have my best in mind.
And with everything that ever comes my way,
I know you're in control so hear me as I pray. I'm singing...
(Repeat *)
Now help me Lord to share what I've been given,
help me make a difference with the life I'm living,
as I show my neighbor where true treasure stored
help me know you promised you'd be with Lord, I'm singing...
(Repeat *)
Be With Me Lord
Sometimes I feel that I could fight an army
With just me and you, there's no one could harm me.
Oh, but sometimes I can feel a little shy,
It's when I need to know that you are there that's why I'm singing
*Be with me Lord, Be with me Lord
be with me Lord, oh, be with me,
be with me, be with me Lord,
be with me Lord, be with me Lord,
be with me, be my only God.
I know you said that I will not be tested,
more than I could bear and that you have my best in mind.
And with everything that ever comes my way,
I know you're in control so hear me as I pray. I'm singing...
(Repeat *)
Now help me Lord to share what I've been given,
help me make a difference with the life I'm living,
as I show my neighbor where true treasure stored
help me know you promised you'd be with Lord, I'm singing...
(Repeat *)
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