Yesterday, when I was going home, I felt afraid.
I felt afraid because I didn't know what would happen. I failed my final exam in [Managerial] Economic Analysis, a required subject in my course (Master of Management).
I also failed my mid-term in the same exam.
If you were in my position, would you not feel afraid?
I tried to rationalize what was happening. I thought, If I would watch my life in a television, how would I look like? Maybe, I would say that that person is stupid for putting so much with such an unimportant, "un-everlasting" (in reference to everlasting things in Purpose Driven Life) idea.
Usually, I could do that. But not that time.
In the train, I felt afraid and hopeless. I was about to give up.
I mean just give up. Not to motivate myself (which I do everyday considering the number of things I have to do). Not to plan. Not to innovate or adopt. Just give up.
I felt the masters flying away.
(My feelings for the failure was compounded with the idea that I have not failed the graduate course when I was working for private companies, but now that I work at the school where I take it, that is when the threat comes in!)
Those were the things going through my head.
I read the Bible today. Early. I thought I have to make sure I don't forget reading it this time, and try to rush it in the evening. But I was not able to.
At 7 pm, I went to Gloria Jeans (Gateway), so get some files. I decided to read the Bible. And this time, I read it at www.biblegateway.com (what can I say?).
I decided to search for free downloadble Bibles for my Linux laptop. I want to have one, preferably an NIV. I got to some sites, but I was not able to get one because the idea of ProTIPS came in. I decided to search for it because I want to have an idea what the book is like.
Incidentally, I came across the ProTIPS blog.
I have tried searching for it more than a year ago at the FEBC website, to no avail. Now, I see all the tips I have been searching for.
But of course, I'm still buying the book. :)
Actually, all of that is just the introduction. My main point is short and simple.
In the post that I read (which is actually for November 4 2008), it saw two sentences:
You say: "I'm afraid."
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear. (2 Tim. 11:7)
That's it.
