I'm here at a coffee shop, supposedly because I want to have an "introvert recharge." It's what I call my quiet time to just be myself, try not think of anything in particular, just letting it go where the randomness of my thoughts take it.
I thought of imagining of how I would try to get the attention of a girl I like, but I have to stop myself as I would probably look stupid to other people. I am at a coffee shop, as I said.
I wanted to code, but that would require thinking, which is not what thoughtless wondering is about.
So here I am typing words, just reporting what my mind is thinking at the moment.
I've tried a brand of coffee that I have always liked. It's coffee shop where I used to work for like four hours or more to create a video of our college.
I am not sure if my retooling sessions are effective, as I have no immediate means to measure the effectiveness. I gave them an opportunity to practice what I've taught them. I'll see the results tomorrow, and I will listen to their way of thinking. I think it is a good way to understand how they look at our work and how their mind responds to (I think) new ideas that they will have to implement.
Supervising work of people is not new to me, but being officially and formally called one is a challenge. It's a learning experience from day 1. The experience I dread the most, I have to receive on my first day.
I really wish she would not go. But there's just nothing I can do. I wish I could. But I can't. I don't have anything to make her stay. If I were in her place, I would probably go, too.
It's unfortunate because I was hoping she would be able to help me with the cognitive tasks in our team. When she goes, I would have to carry that load alone. That pushes me to fast track training the remaining staff to share the load on monitoring work.
I have to study HTML and CSS. I think I could learn it on my own, but I have to admit that having classmates helps me learn faster.
What's the future like?
There is a risk to everything, including when you do not make risky decisions consciously.
I really I could pursue my goal of being a part-time faculty member. I wish I could teach at UP.
I have to review how to teach. I have to improve how to facilitate learning.
I will have to stop thinking now. Just let my thoughts go aimlessly.
I wish she would not go. I need her.
But I know I could go on without her. Just like what happened before.
Every experience is a lesson. I choose to stay and take the hard lessons.
